I know it's been a while since I've posted. I've been sick again and it's been hard to get on my computer. A lot has happened, and I'll try to get it all in and not forget anything.

First off, I dropped this semester of school. I've been so sick that I just couldn't do my finals. It's hard to take a test or write a paper when you haven't been in class enough to understand what the subject is. I talked it over with Kim, my counselor, and she advised me to drop the semester. I tried so hard to catch up, but it didn't happen. Hopefully we can figure out why I'm getting sick all the time and fix it. I plan to go back for the fall, but I probably won't take as many credits. Right now, I'm only planning on 9 credits: the Tolkien class I told you about, an ASL class, and Biology. I'm sick to death of taking classes and failing them. If taking a smaller load will get me through a class, then that's what I've got to do.

Next, I've lost more hearing. I've noticed that I'm having problems understanding my teachers and my classmates. It's even worse in hallways and crowded areas. I can hear them fine, I just can't understand them. My doctor said that Hearing Aids would help, so I'm going to be getting them. It'll be a hassel, but if it will help me hear better, then it'll be worth it. I'm sick of being in a crowd and not understanding. I end up guessing at what people say then saying exactly the wrong thing. I come off looking stupid and that bugs me.

So, lately, it seems as if all my dreams are falling apart. Being an Oakcrest girls camp counselor is out of the question. The Bell Choir thing won't be happening for a while. With me geting sick, it lookes like being an Elementary School Teacher isn't the best idea. It also seems that my dreams of Eric are also never going to come true. There's a song that me and my family knows. One of the lines is: I could have been a dreamer, but dreams just fall apart, so I settled for safer harbors of my heart. I had started to believe that. Then, the other day, I listened to Voice of the Heart (a Carpenters album) again, and I got to the song Look to Your Dreams. Karen Carpenter has always been a hero of mine, but this song reduced me to tears. If you haven't heard it, I suggest you go online and find the lyrics. It's a wonderful song, and you'll understand my feelings. It helped me realize that my dreams aren't dead, they've just been put on hold until I can figure things out.

I know this post is depressing, but I really am happy. I am sad that I've had so many problems with my health, but I have a great family and so many blessings I can count them. I just want to say thank you to all of you who have been a support to me. I love you all!!!

I know it's been a while since I've posted. I've been sick again and it's been hard to get on my computer. A lot has happened, and I'll try to get it all in and not forget anything.

First off, I dropped this semester of school. I've been so sick that I just couldn't do my finals. It's hard to take a test or write a paper when you haven't been in class enough to understand what the subject is. I talked it over with Kim, my counselor, and she advised me to drop the semester. I tried so hard to catch up, but it didn't happen. Hopefully we can figure out why I'm getting sick all the time and fix it. I plan to go back for the fall, but I probably won't take as many credits. Right now, I'm only planning on 9 credits: the Tolkien class I told you about, an ASL class, and Biology. I'm sick to death of taking classes and failing them. If taking a smaller load will get me through a class, then that's what I've got to do.

Next, I've lost more hearing. I've noticed that I'm having problems understanding my teachers and my classmates. It's even worse in hallways and crowded areas. I can hear them fine, I just can't understand them. My doctor said that Hearing Aids would help, so I'm going to be getting them. It'll be a hassel, but if it will help me hear better, then it'll be worth it. I'm sick of being in a crowd and not understanding. I end up guessing at what people say then saying exactly the wrong thing. I come off looking stupid and that bugs me.

So, lately, it seems as if all my dreams are falling apart. Being an Oakcrest girls camp counselor is out of the question. The Bell Choir thing won't be happening for a while. With me geting sick, it lookes like being an Elementary School Teacher isn't the best idea. It also seems that my dreams of Eric are also never going to come true. There's a song that me and my family knows. One of the lines is: I could have been a dreamer, but dreams just fall apart, so I settled for safer harbors of my heart. I had started to believe that. Then, the other day, I listened to Voice of the Heart (a Carpenters album) again, and I got to the song Look to Your Dreams. Karen Carpenter has always been a hero of mine, but this song reduced me to tears. If you haven't heard it, I suggest you go online and find the lyrics. It's a wonderful song, and you'll understand my feelings. It helped me realize that my dreams aren't dead, they've just been put on hold until I can figure things out.

I know this post is depressing, but I really am happy. I am sad that I've had so many problems with my health, but I have a great family and so many blessings I can count them. I just want to say thank you to all of you who have been a support to me. I love you all!!!